Hi everybody
I decided to make this blog for everyone that wants to be healthy, happy and needs some self esteem! Here I would like to share my story with you and hope that many of you can see yourself in it.
I am overweight since 12 years old. I always loved food and eating, but within no time food craving started to take power over me and my body. I ate way too much and way too often. Food is my way to conceal emotions but also to celebrate. When I feel sad I eat, when I feel happy I eat, when I feel angry I ate, when I feel excited I eat. I always try to make myself feel better with food. Sometimes I bought 500g chips bag, 1l ice cream and just ate it all.
2 years ago I tried to commit suicide. It was not just about my weight but I felt so hopeless that I could never have a complete control over my life and I somehow lost faith and will to live. All this hidden feelings turn into depression and I was just pulled into black hole. Then I gained other 20kg and felt even worse.
I feel really ashmed about it because it was the most stupid and selfish thing I have done. Only few people know about it because I hate to tell this to anyone. I know I have hurt my family, my friends and in the end myself. Still, I look at it as on the lesson because honestly I've learned so much since then and also understood things that I could never understand before.
Now I treasure and love life more then ever. I feel so blessed that God gave me a second chance to make things right. I am on pursuit of happiness and now its also time to take a proper care of my body because both our body is the most important thing to take care of and respect.
I hope that many of you that are struggling with yourselfs, your weight, self- esteem or maybe depression issues will follow my blog and YouTube because together we are invinciable!
Love
Leksi